Oh the joys of infertility

If you know Chad and I, you know that we LOVE to laugh - about anything and everything.  I think that is what has gotten us through the last four years. Well, that and our amazingly supportive friends and family - and most importantly -  our faith in a God who is bigger than anything we could imagine or think...
So here is a brief synopsis of what we have been through in the last four years...
      As many wide eyed innocent couples do, we went into this making a family thing with high expectations.   We knew that Chad's parents had some difficulty getting pregnant, so some sort of "infertility" was a possiblity- but we really didn't think it would be a reality for us.  We.were.wrong.  I began to experience a significant sadness each month that we would get a negative pregnancy test.  We spent an excessive amount of money on ovulation predictor kits - pregnancy tests- books etc...After two years of tracking every single thing you can track (I promise, you really don't want to know), we were referred by my fabulous OB to a fertility specialist.  We spent a year and a half with this clinic.  I don't even want to tell you the amount of money that we spent - because NOTHING was covered by either insurace.  We tried intrauterine insemination.  FAIL.  They recommended a surgery for Chad that would increase our chances.  The recovery from this surgery could be easily described as unpleasant.  After the recommended time, we went back to see if the surgery was a success.  FAIL. At this point, we had been through a LOT with our clinic, and someone recommended another specialist.  So we decided to try him.  Let me just say that we never stopped praying from our first appointment to our iui to the surgery.  We prayed that God would guide us in the right direction.  We always knew that God had prepared us to be adoptive parents.  He put that desire and love in our hearts early in our marriage.  Let's be honest, that didn't take my want to be pregnant away.  We met with the new specialist, and found out that we would have to begin all over with him- all of the test, all of the procedures, etc... We were pretty devastated at this point so we decided to take a break.  We spent the next hours, days, weeks, month in prayer.  Oh - maybe I forgot to mention - God had been working on Chad this whole time.  Chad kept reminding me about how he just felt like adoption was what we should pursue.  So, God finally began to reveal to me that being a Mom was what he wanted for me.  He was showing me that I didn't have to be pregnant to accomplish this.   I read an amazing book - Adopted for Life.  It changed me.  I realized how we are all adopted by God.  I don't even have the words to tell you about how God is preparing my heart.   I just have an amazing peace over this decision.  So - We began to interview with several agencies.  We finally decided on one - and here we are.  Can I just tell you how excited I am????? I LOVE the idea of adoption.  We will be able to give this child an amazing life.  I pray peace over our birthmom.  I can't imagine the difficulty of the decision she is going to make.  I am even more excited to add more diversity to our family.  :) And guess what? I can actually look in the baby section now and not just dream.  We are on a journey to meet our little blessing - and boy are we certain of what an amazing gift he/she will be!  We are so excited about what God has in store.
Stay Tuned...
Kristle :)